That is what I was hoping the doctor wouldn’t say 12 years ago today! I knew from when I was a little girl I wanted to be a mom. Being an only child I hated not having siblings and vowed I would never have just one. Well, God has a sense of humor and when I went in for my ultrasound and they said there were 2 in there I will be honest I was nervous and scared! Little did I know twins run in my family and we have at least 20 sets that my grandfather has tracked through our family tree! I thought just having one baby was a blessing. Never in a million years did I think I’d be doubly blessed!
Now it’s 12 years later! Where does the time go?! I can’t believe my babies are growing up too darn fast! It still feels like it was yesterday I was 38 weeks pregnant, bigger than a whale and suffering from heartburn every day! Those 38 weeks felt like they would last forever! I can’t tell you how many times I was hospitalized for pre term labor, and thankfully went home each time with the babies still in my belly. Then at 34 weeks the doctor finally said if labor started then they wouldn’t stop it. And wouldn’t you know it, nothing! Mother Nature is hilarious I tell you!
My doctor had me come in the morning of April 1st to be induced. After having my water broken, Pitocin, an epidural, and several hours of labor those babies were determined to stay put! The doctor decided to put me out of my misery and go ahead and do a c-section. (now we know that the boys were head to head so they both were in each other’s way) I remember being wheeled into the OR scared to death. They let me have my mom and Brandon in there with me. I remember the nurses telling me I wouldn’t feel any pain. But I wish they would have told me that you can still feel pressure and tugging!
Then at 5:41pm Joseph Allen was born! I remember hearing crying but they didn’t let me see him. He was having trouble breathing and they whisked him away to the NICU. Then at 5:42pm James Austin entered the world! I remember him wailing and crying and the nurse held him up to show me. After Joseph being taken away I was concerned with them looking after James and I remember telling the nurse that I saw him and to make sure he was ok! Then Brandon went to the NICU with the boys and my mom stayed with me while they stapled me up.
Afterwords they took me to recovery. Somehow in transit my epidural came out unexpectedly and I could feel EVERYTHING! It was awful! I was in so much pain and friends and family were coming in and out. I remember I just wanted to be left alone, but I was hurting so much I didn’t have it in me to say anything. I wanted to see my babies but at that point I wanted to not hurt!
Then they wheeled me into my room. I was still hurting, they wouldn’t give me any pain meds and I was too shy say something! Finally we kicked everyone out and I tried to sleep. But I was STILL was hurting and I hadn’t seen my babies yet. I already felt like a guilty mother!
In the morning grandparents came and said they were going to the nursery to see the boys. I was pissed! Dammit I was their mother and I was the only one who hadn’t seen them yet! So I very carefully got in a wheelchair and they wheeled me to the nursery where I finally saw them. They placed Joseph in my arms and it was surreal. I couldn’t believe that they were finally here and they were mine. Poor Joseph had a dent in his head from where he was resting on my hip. James was so quiet and chill and just took in his surroundings. When the medical staff felt they could come be with me in my room they wheeled them in 1 little bassinet. They were so tiny!
A few days later we were discharged home. I remember feeling weird that they were just going to let us take the babies home with us! I think Brandon drove 5 miles under the speed limit the whole way! Then when family left and it was just the 4 of us Brandon and I were terrified! We were responsible for the 2 little humans!
Flash forward to now I still see their same personalities that were there in the beginning. Joseph has always been vocal and not scared to take risks. Joseph is 1 minute older and takes that 1 minute and runs with it acting like the older brother. James just lets him go with it and is still very laid back. James is very quiet and analytical. He’s always been more shy and the thinker. Yet when they get together they are unstoppable! Like the time I thought they were down for a nap when they were about 3. I decided to take a super quick glorious shower! When I came out they had managed to push a chair to the fridge, climb up on it and unlock it, grab the whole gallon of milk and drag it to their room. They tried to pour it into their sippy cups. But they instead poured a whole gallon of milk on their floor!
Being a mom in itself is amazing, exhausting and terrifying. But being a mom to twins is multiplied by more than double! These past 12 years have been full of laughter, lots of tears, and memories I wouldn’t trade for anything! I am so lucky to be your mom Joseph and James! I hope you have a wonderful 12th birthday!